love, 210510

I opened up my eyes today, wanting to forget you again.

I prayed that, today you will be far far away from me.

I bathed.

I ate.

I drank.

I was determined that today would be a success.

I skipped happily into my room.

Wanting to fetch my school bag.

I tucked my bed neatly and pull away the curtains.

I looked down on the street from my bedroom window.

As i normally do.

I enjoyed the view from my window.

The green scenery of the small field and the long track of the MRT.

I love to see people rushing of to work, chasing the Mad Rush Transport.

I was smiling all the way looking at the view that makes my morning great.

But my smile faded away.

Why?

Because i saw a guy.

He was walking down the street.

With his pace as he normally walk.

He rushes to the MRT.

I looked at the watch on my hand.

7.05AM

He's late.

But that wasn't why my smile fade away.

It faded because i saw that guy.

I saw you.

I was happy enough because i pledged and prayed and hoped that i could forget you today.

But fate just wouldn't let me do so.

Maybe it is just today.

Maybe it is just today.

Maybe it is just today.

I did wish it is just today.

Cause i want to forget you before you insult me.

I could not fathom why fate letthis happen?

I think this is a test.

I'm sure it is.

I'm sure after this there won't be anymore coincidence.

I know.

It has always been like that.

But today, besides that incident, there were two more that fate allows to happen.

I was sitting in class writing your name on that piece of paper.

My idea was to fill up the whole paper with your name and to tear it off.

It was almost 9AM.

I saw you walk to the bus stop.

But i didn't know you would be that late.

The moment you entered the room, my head jerked up in that instant.

Weird.

I did not cared when the door kept opening and closing as the other excused themselves.

But the moment you entered?

In a split second my eyes met the sight of you.

After school, i wanted to walk to the furthest bus stop away from the school.

But the weather was too hot.

My friends wouldn't let me walk.

So i had to take the bus at the same bus stop as you.

I was expecting you to catch the next bus, not the same bus, like how you do sometimes.

But no.

You took the same bus.

Instead of taking it at the side you were initially at, you walked and came to the side where i was suppose to take.

I wanted to cry.

I really do.

The three coincidence broke my confidence in letting you go.

I want to let you go.

For my sake.

For your sake.

I just need to.

It is the right thing to do.

But maybe it is just a matter of time.

Like how it used to be.

Time will vanish it all.

One by one.