Love, 160410

Every time i had the time, i will think of you. Your condition made you who you are today. I would always pray that ALLAH lightened your burden. It is sad to see you being scolded by teachers all around who does not understand your condition. I wanted to be the one who is there for you, but you won't allow me to. It is okay though. I just want you to be happy. But either ways you are not. So i could only pray for you. I want you to be a good person in life. I have to say i do not only like you, but this affection of love is growing each day. People may ask me why. I have no answer to that. Because to me, loving someone does not need a reason. And if there is a reason why you loved that someone, then that is not love. That is admire. I just wish i had the chance to at least feel your love. A second would be great. I ain't that perfect girl of your choice. And i've seen who your perfect girl of your choice is. I'm a nothing compared to her. I know. I'm different. I'm unique. I do not want to be the same as others. I have my own way of getting things done. I know your sickness pulls your concentration away but somehow i just wished you showed the teachers some effort and prove them wrong. I really wished one day you would do that. You used to be a great boy. Everything you do, i'm always right beside you. And if you were to fall one day, i'll be there for you. I promise. Even if you do not want me to. I will be there. That is how badly i want to be with you, boy.

FRIENDSHIP, 140410

I did not know why we are near but seems so far

Though i was right there

It seems as though i wasn't

Where did all the excitement go?

Gone to Him, Her, Her and Her?

What am i here for then?

A place you go to for counselling?

Is that so?

I treasure friendship. Once in awhile i do wish i was appreciated. Instead of being criticised. I do not wish to be this way. I tried my very best to be happy. Unfortunately i can't. I feel so lonely. Alone. I go to Him, Him, Him, Her, Her, Her and Her because i do not have any meaning in your life as a friend anymore. If i were there, i never had your attention. If i was not there, you don't seem to feel anything missing. You've now said harsh words to me. But i did not take it to heart. But when it happens to frequently. That's when it hurts my heart.

LOVE, 140410

Was it right of me to lie to you?

Did i make te right decision?

Aku suka kau monster

Aku sayang kau

But i did not want to create another disaster in my life

There's too much problem for me to handle

I do not need any criticism anymore

Aku tau siape diri aku

Aku sedar monster

Ingin Sekali Aku Meluahkan

Rasa Cinta Yang Terpendam

Namun Engkau Tak Merelakan

Rasa Ini Diluahkan

Mengapa Selalu Aku Yang Ditindas

Sememangnya Aku Terkilan

Mengapa Tidak Aku Yang Kau Cinta

Benar Aku Tidak Sempurna