IF, love, 110510

IF i were pretty, would you love me?

IF i were not fat, would you love me?

IF i were rich, would you love me?

IF i were not ugly, would you love me?

IF

So far, you've not yet criticised me like how i've always been.

But i know soon you will.

I did not want to wait for that moment.

Cause i would break down and cry.

I guess now i realised why my brothers told me to let you go.

They do not want me to cry.

They do not want me to get broken hearted.

I could break down easily.

Just by words froom the person i love.

They know me that well.

And so they are telling me to let you go.

Being a stubborn girl as i have always been.

I try not to let you go.

I was doing well yesterday not thinking of you.

But as i scrolled my FB.

Suddenly, your profile popped out.

How am i to go through this?

When little things like this could pop just anytime?

How could i deny the fact?

When my heart tells me not to?

While the others who likes to tease me say out your name?

When every time i stand by the bus station and i see you?

When everytime i turn around you're there standing?

How am i suppose to let you go?

When you are so close to me?

When you are just there, right in front of me?

Yes, i wished you would love me.

Yes, i wished you did liked me.

Yes, i wished i was the girl you were looking for.

Yes, i wished i was the one you wanted.

But like my brothers said, it is impossible.

I know.

I perfectly know it.

Cause i've gone thru it.

A lot of times.

And it hurts me everytime.

It is just an IF YOU LOVE ME.